He was the same kid I remember. Loud and boisterous, yet slightly unsure. Arrogant and very full of himself with a false aura of humbleness. He still talks with food in his mouth and spits it all over me when he talks. The current love of his life is the greatest love there has ever been and she is so much more perfect than I ever was.
I was hoping for an apology, maybe more like expecting one. I assumed that's what this lunch meet was for. But he didn't. So I didn't get to give my speech.
Jonathan,
In high school I was madly, hopelessly in love with you. And you knew it and exploited me. Your parents knew it as well and took advantage of a stupid 16 year old girl. I resent all of you for your actions. I blame your parents more than you. As educated adults, who were in charge of teaching you some of the harder and more uncomfortable life lessons, they should have stopped you from playing with the emotions of the ugly fat girl. They knew better, but it was easier to do nothing. So that's what they did.
But it was still you that thew me away and then pulled me back in time after time. I am sure you realized what you were doing. It seems that you feed off of others affection towards you. You need someone to worship you. And I was your backup worshiper.
I'm not blameless either. I should have walked away those times you told me you couldn't handle me in your life. But I was dumb and at 16 who really can walk away from the boy they are "in love" with?
Its been five years and I become a totally different person than the one I was in high school. I don't let boys with God complexes get to me anymore. I have a life that I am happy living. I don't want you in it. Please don't call me again.
Now he wants me to come over to dinner with his whole fam damily. I wonder how well this speech would go over at the Luke family dinner table?
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